SUMIRE
It truly is strange that Yuhi has this effect on her. She has dated four other guys, and none of them have made her feel this way. She recalled her conversation with Toh about a destined person, a partner. From the very moment he mentioned it, she immediately thought of Yuhi. She thought about the memories they shared, and how each of their first encounters led to them being drawn to each other.
She isn't just saying this because she is biased. Even when she only admired Yuhi as a singer, she already felt a connection between them. It felt like there was an invisible red string between their souls, tugging her closer.
"Your concert." Yuhi mumbled. "-I'll be watching it."
Her eyes lit up. "You will? But don't you have a busy schedule?"
It wasn't just Kou and the others who sent her messages but Takeyama. Takeyama keeps her up to date on the groups activities. From their recent message exchange, Yuhi-san's schedule is packed.
"Cancelled. Your lucky Takeyama is a huge fan of yours, and insists that we all need to watch for learning references."
Her sweat fell. Isn't that abusing privileges? Then again, it's better than Takeyama disliking her. In fact. He is actually quite easy to talk to.
Yuhi suddenly paused. "Sumire, I want to talk to you about something." He said seriously.
"What is it?"
"When Atushi came to see me not too long ago, he showed me something."
ƥandasnovel·ƈom Sumire takes a deep breath, understanding where he was getting at. After all Atushi already warned her.
"Sumire." Yuhi said sharply. "I know you already told me about Nagawa taking your blood. But, is he doing anything more?"
'Is he doing anything more?'
Flashes of their last meeting flashed through her mind, Sano's face buried between her legs as he bit her inner thigh. His hands on her breasts-
"I-" Sumire couldn't get the words out.
Ever since she started the arrangement with Sano, ever since he started to go too far. She has silently kept it to herself. She felt as though if she admitted what was happening, she would end up in tears. She kept it to herself, that was until Toh came. She ended up blurting everything out to him, and since then she thought she has been doing better.
However, now Yuhi-san is confronting her about it. Once again those emotions she suppressed are coming out. Yuhi didn't say anything, and simply wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into his embrace. Sumire leaned into him, enjoying his warmth and his scent.
'The most comfortable place has always been beside Yuhi.' While she feels comfortable around Toh and Ru. The safety she feels being in Yuhi's arms is something different. Even without words, this man knows how to comfort her.
"I cant." Sumire sobbed. "I-I cant."
She can't do this anymore. It's so difficult. If she admits to Yuhi-san what has been happening, then San will get in trouble. As much as his actions have frightened her, she also understands. Sano has been hurt too deeply, because of her he has to endure so much. Had he not appeared in her life again, Lucifer wouldn't have continued to use him. Sano would have been free eventually, he could have had a normal life.
But now Sano can't escape, he has become an evolved human, a hanyou who has to rely on blood. Not to mention his powers that he can't control. How is he supposed to live a normal life now? In contrast, the pain he put her through is nothing. His words cut her deeply, but his actions spoke far louder.
She can't get him in trouble, but to lie to Yuhi? To lie to this person who has done nothing but save her time and time again? It would break her even more.
'Some lies are necessary to avoid further pain and grief.' But, Yuhi-san and her are both the type who prefers truths over lies. Even if those truths cut our worlds in half. They would rather swallow the harsh truth than pretty lies.
It's so painful, she doesn't want to lie anymore.
Lies hurt people, and she no longer wants to lie.
Another reason she can't say a word is, she is afraid of his reaction. She is afraid that Yuhi-san will truly hate her this time. He may think she isn't stopping Sano deliberately and that she is letting this happen. She is worried that he will believe those rumors, and he will turn his back on her.
Even if he doesn't believe them, there is no doubt that he will be disgusted with her.
Sumire struggled to speak. She has to tell him something, to talk to him. But, it felt like something was gripping onto her throat, preventing any words from leaving. Preventing her from breathing. She struggled to get air into her lungs, and the world around her felt like it was spinning.
Yuhi tipped her head back and kissed her. It felt like he was breathing air into her lungs. Almost like he knew what was going on. After a few minutes, he pulls away.
"Sumire." Yuhi said softly. "Breathe. It's alright, I am not angry at you."
Hearing those words, she somehow managed to speak. "Y-your not?" Her voice croaked.
Yuhi shakes his head. "For one, how could you possibly think I would be angry at you? Your my love, my life and my soul. Getting angry at you would be the same as lashing out on myself. Your the other half of my soul, I could never be angry at you."
"Y-you may not hate me. But, isn't it normal to feel frustrated?"
"Well, I did feel disturbed when I saw those images. However, even when I saw that. The thought that it was your fault never crossed my mind, not even for a moment. Instead, I was angry at myself."
"But you didn't do anything."
"Yeah, and that's what the issue is. I should have been there to protect you. It shouldn't have happened at all."
Hearing the bitterness in his tone and seeing the regret in his eyes, she clenched her fist. Why is he blaming himself for this? She was the one who did something stupid. When the arrangement first started, Hino said he would supervise.
'If you really have to do this Sumire, do it when I am around. Let me be there.' But, she foolishly pushed Hino away and insisted that she was fine and that Sano wouldn't hurt her.
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