If she thought it was easy to manipulate Sano, then there is no doubt others discovered that too. How could she have been so naive? Why did she never think to ask him, exactly what does he do for Lucifer? Why has she never pressed for details? 'How does he treat you?' She simply assumed that Sano was a valuable enough pawn that Lucifer would treat him like he did Toh. But, considering the brief glimpse of how he was treated that time she followed him to one of the Black Alice hideouts. She should have known.
Seeing the dark energy pouring out of Sano. Sumire frowned as she glared at Lucifer. He did this on purpose. She wonders how many times Lucifer has deliberately urged Sano to lose control? If he can manipulate him this easily, then the past half year must have been more painful than she imagined.
ƥαṇdα- ηθνε|·ƈθm (PLEASE LET ME GO BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE/ DON'T LET ME FALL IN THE DEEP OF YOUR CHEST.)
Sumire took a few steps forward, intending to stop him but a voice in her head was preventing her from doing so.
'He hurt you so much, he deserves every pain coming his way.'
A giggle, another voice.
'Queen, this is your chance to hurt him. To get your revenge.'
Revenge?
Is that what she wanted?
(STILL WE DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HIDING INSIDE US.)
The lies she told Yuhi, Hino and anybody else who asked her what she was doing with Sano resurfaced in her mind.
It was all lies, she can say that confidentiality now.
(PLEASE LET ME GO BEFORE I FALL IN LOVE)
It was a lie, all of it. She said it to appease people, no to convince herself. The more she said those words, the more she wanted to believe it.
But the reality was so very different. She understood deep down, that she has never resented this person even for a single second. No matter how much pain he has inflicted on her.
(LETTERS, SECRETS BETWEEN YOU AND ME)
She could never truly hate him, and that frightened her more than anything. Because it should have been easy for her to hate someone. Easy for her to hurt another person just like they did her.
However with Nagawa Sano? She couldn't even come close to truly hurting him. No venomous words on her side or cold behaviour, came close to the pain he gave her.
(LIKE FEATHERS, FEATHERS)
Sano knew that. Despite their little arguments and disputes, he understood. Even though he shouldn't, it's because he was truly in love with her.
(HOW IT WOULD BE IF NOTHING TIES OUR WILL)
The way Sano expressed his love towards her wasn't the best. But like she has always said to Yuhi, jealousy is a monster in disguise. Sano's jealousy turned him into a true monster. His jealousy, his insecurity and the heavy burden he was carrying. It was too much, and he exploded.
She understood that, even if she never admitted it till now. It doesn't excuse his actions, his mistakes cost them their relationship. It cost them something that could have been good.
(WHEN YOU LOOK INTO MY EYES. I SEE THE GREY, I SEE THE LIES THAT COVERS YOUR SMILE)
'I will explain it to you, properly. Please wait.'A distant memory, something she forgot due to the kidnapping accident she was involved in. Sano and her, did meet after the break up and she learned that he had his reasons. He didn't try to hide it, even though he could have. The moment they were alone, all the lies came crashing down and she understood him.
She understood that he never meant to hurt her, that he didn't realize what saying those words would do to her.
(WHEN YOU LOOK INTO MY EYES. DO YOU FEEL THE SAME? DO YOU SEE THE LIES THAT COVER MY PAIN?)
It would be so easy for her to walk away, she could do so and she knew even if she turned her back. Lucifer wouldn't attack, and yet she couldn't do it.
'No matter how heartless you make yourself out to be Sumire that is not what you're like.'
It seems Yuhi-san was right again. The reason why Yuhi never acted on his jealousy is because he understood how weak her heart was.
He understood that despite being surrounded in darkness, and her lack of faith and trust in the world. She still found the world beautiful. Despite being hurt over and over, she could never truly hate someone.
'I can't even play the role of the villain correctly, I truly am helpless.'
(YOUR HAND, MY HAND.I FEEL YOU CLOSER, SLOWLY TOUCHING)
Lucifer must have been expecting her to either walk Sano away or cut him down with her ability. She could have done that, blood sword in hand= but the moment she got close she dropped the weapon. It immediately dissolved into a pool of blood.
Sumire clung tightly to Sano, the suffocating darkness surrounded her. Engulfed her in the same pain and anguish Sano was experiencing. It was almost like he regained his senses for a moment since he wrapped his arms around her covering her face. Trying to shield her.
(PLEASE LET ME GO BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. DON'T LET ME FALL IN THE DEEP OF YOUR CHEST)
She bit her lip. He truly is a fool. 'I told him, so many cruel things. I treated him like a toy. But he, he still loves me. The past me, and even the current.' Once she questioned him about his feelings. But, there was no need to do that.
Whether it is the past or the present, Sano has fallen for both Ah, Yuhi-san must have known. That's why not only did he never act on his jealousy, he never reprimanded Sano for his actions. Yuhi-san always acts like she is the kind one, but he is the truly kind one.
(STILL WE DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HIDING INSIDE US)
Yuhi-san could sense San's sincerity before she could. He knew despite San's strange behaviour and attitude. Thinking of Yuhi made her tear up. Right now she should be focusing on San and yet, every single time. She finds herself thinking about him.
(PLEASE LET ME GO BEFORE I FALL IN LOVE._
Sumire closed her eyes, and felt a surge of power inside her. It wasn't her blood ability. It was fire, her body felt warmer.
*Unedited*
Visit and read more novel to help us update chapter quickly. Thank you so much!
Use arrow keys (or A / D) to PREV/NEXT chapter